Monday, April 14, 2014

Fall For You

I never thought I would fall for you. I never saw this coming. I'm trying to tell myself to stop what started. But my heart tells me not to give you up. Love always comes with pain. Pains that I can handle as long as you are here by my side. I think this maybe the last time I would fall just like this. Fall for you means the last journey I would take before leaving this world. I just hope that the time we share would be all worth it. Worth the pain and the worries I am feeling right now. The pain I am feeling seems endless. But somehow all of these pains keep giving me the courage to keep on loving you much more than I can imagine.
I never really expected to fall for you. But I am sure now that I will never give up loving you till the end. I just hope you feel the same way I do. Promise me that I have your present and your future. And I promise that I will be yours till the end of my life. So let the journey begins.

Monday, February 18, 2013

Emptiness Inside Me

I just wonder if people around me notices the emptiness inside me. I feel like when you look straight into my eyes, you would see nothing. Like your gaze will pass through my eyes. They say that what you feel is exactly what they see. Oh well, then it's what they see in me now.
My life now is in such a mess that  I don't even know if there's a way out. I'm taking in everything and I know there's no way out. I've been trying so hard to go on and live. But a part of me already gave up. It's like I am literally dragging myself to wake up and face life everyday. I don't even know anymore what to do, or where to go. Slowly, my path of life is leading me nowhere... Then I felt the emptiness inside me...

Friday, December 28, 2012

Love And All The Lies

Men would always want to take charge of the lives of women. But a real woman knows how to twist things around seamlessly. Admit it, as a woman you are strong, confident, and not afraid of almost anything. Want to know a secret? Here it is... A lot of times you will let your man feel that you're vulnerable, and incapable of doing things without him beside you. Am I right or am I right?
It's funny when you say you never lied to your partner. But when you really think about it, you sometimes do right? It's a way to make them feel that they're somewhat in control of our lives when in fact we do. This makes life more interesting and balance all at the same time. 
Looking forward to making another lie... And with it comes another endless days of cuddling and never ending longing for each other's comfort and love. They say it's an endless road. I say, my road is now coming to an end. I don't have the luxury to waste my time. Just keep going and while walking that road, keep things simple. Love the way you want to love. Enjoy every minute with someone you love, with lies or no lies. Enjoy life as you take the road that will soon come to an end.

Thursday, October 18, 2012

I Love The Way You Love Me

I haven't seen this coming...
I was sad, frustrated, and so alone
I got high smoking, drinking a glass or two 
(Actually, A mug really...)
But then you came into my life
And there it all ends
And there it all started

Sometimes life can be so funny. The people you love are the same people that disappoint you in ways you can never imagine. What surprises me is how people you don't even know exists are also the same people who will turn your world into a world with so many possibilities. Now, isn't that amazing? Amazing that the one person you thought you've given the chance to love you would turn out to be the person you've been waiting your whole life. 
I am not saying I won't light another cigarette or drink anymore. I am still not stressed free you know. But there are things that I want him to know... "Beyond my flaws and doubts, I love the way you love me..." You are the light I see within my dark clouds. We've talked about how we started just today. Frankly, I don't mind if we cannot figure out when is our anniversary. Or that we don't have it at all. And I will not wait anymore for my so called sign of roses. It's enough for me that you are in my life now. And this will keep me sane from the insane life I am right now.

All I am saying is that... "I love the way you love me..."

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Is It Really Love?

Another time to listen to my thoughts. Is it really love? I have asked myself so many times and still I doubt even my own feelings. There are so many questions like "Why do i fall in love so easily?', "Will this love last?", " Is he the right one for me?" These are just few of the questions I am hearing right now inside my head. If only I can stop worrying too much and just feel.
This is another time when almost everything in my life seems down and hopeless. I cry a lot when nobody is looking. And I cannot deny that I am slowly weakening as day's passes me by. I am so afraid where this would lead me. But somehow when all is lost, I found him. A person that keeps me up when I am about to give up. For now, I found him and I am crossing my fingers that  he will stay till the end.
I have come to realize one thing while writing this post. Most of the time the mind cannot explain what the heart can. Only the heart understands while the mind is left wondering what is happening. Is it really love? I don't really know. I just know I am happy. That is all that matters to me now.

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

"Not In A Relationship But More Than Friends"

When you read something like "not in a relationship but more than friends", what does it tell you? Do you see yourself trapped in this kind of "not in a relationship" thing? So many questions are running around my head these past few weeks. Either I'll find the answers to my questions while writing it down or these questions that I have will just be left hanging around for years. Tell me, what are the boundaries set  between being lovers and just friends?