Monday, December 21, 2009
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
As we moved into the next generation of computers, and electronic gadgets, man struggle to keep up every day learning and finding out how to use these to their own advantage. Sometimes I see people either hooked up with these things or they are overwhelmed with ideas in front of them. I’ve seen these things before in the late 90’s. When computers were first introduced in schools and offices. I’m one of those students who were really fascinated with soft touched typing pad. I would say it is better than my typewriter with hard set of keys. While I recall those fascinated years of my life, one thing passed my mind. People will try to keep up in many ways according to what he is expected to. But never listen inside his heart what really matters the most to him just to have that feeling of contentment he longs for. We deny ourselves of the freedom to feed not just or body and mind but also our souls. Learning to free ourselves once in a while with our daily routines of meetings and deadlines will simply do the trick. Take the time off even for just 10 to 15minutes to have a quiet time to relax your body and mind. Free yourself for a while from all these fast phase of life and learn to take the time to listen to YOU. Man is always in search for a deeper meaning of life. But only in his heart can he see what lies beneath those superficial things the world offers him. We cannot see the meaning of life because we tend to keep up with the times. But just simple minutes of contemplating and a simple prayer or two will help him see the meaning of life he is looking for.
Monday, November 30, 2009
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Monday, November 9, 2009
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
I can't believe it's been now a year since my unforgettable experience in my life. It was on the 5Th of November last year when I've almost lost everything,even my life. Last year I've decided to take my life by drinking a lot of sleeping pills. I can't imagine that I will not be here right now if i did end up being dead. Sometimes i feel that it was only yesterday when I was in my 15 years of my chosen life. But now I am where my faith and fate will lead me. I'm amazed at what prayers can do to make you turn your life 360 degrees.My mind was set then that I don't have the strength and the will to live. I've asked Mama Mary to take care of my 2 kids. I went out and bought myself about 20 sleeping pills and decided to wait till night to do it. So, I went to a chapel and prayed to Mama Mary to protect my kids, my mom, and my sister. After praying, I felt my legs started to walk leaving my mind behind. Took a jeep and found myself in front of the Baclaran church. It was my first time to go there. Then something magical happened. After I've cried so much and finally said to Mother of Perpetual Help "I am now surrendering everything to you." I felt something hot went inside me. Then slowly the pain and hurt was washed out from me. I can't forget the feeling of happiness slowly enveloping me. After that everything around me changed for the better. I've learned to love myself and accept all the things I cannot change anymore. I am now a woman who finally knows what I have and what I am worth. I am thankful to Mama Mary that she has given me the second chance to live and to love.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
I've been living my life for months now with the "NOW" concept. It simply says that we should not worry at all about what the future would bring. We need to focus on what we have and what we need today. If you ask me, I can say that it's really hard to get used to this kind of idea since I'm one of the "worrier". But i should say that this really helped me a lot especially with my experience from my past. Somehow it made me assured that whatever will come tomorrow, I have the strength and the courage to face it all with just a smile on my face. And from here, I am sure that I am stronger now than what I was a few months ago. Now, I'm smiling...
Thursday, October 8, 2009
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Sunday, October 4, 2009
Monday, September 21, 2009
Monday, September 14, 2009
Monday, September 7, 2009
Sunday, September 6, 2009
Thursday, September 3, 2009
I've slept just about 4 in the morning today. I woke up with my daughter's alarm at 5:20. Why? It seems like my old habit is back again. I can't seemed to find sleeping to be of use to me. My mind keeps on wondering. My mind travelled back to my younger years again. Then I got up from my laptop and started crying. Is it because of the full moon? Or am I just worrying to much of what my future would be? I can't answer this for now. All I know is I'm still in the edge of losing my mind, again. I know I'm not making sense at all. I am really so senseless when my feelings get out of hand. I love who I am right now. And I want to be more than I am now. It's just one of this days that my mind went berserk. My answer? Maybe I need more sleep after all... Now I know I make sense. It's just a matter of time before I can truly say that everything will be just worth it... Sleep!!!
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Friday, August 7, 2009
This is the face of a woman with two wonderful kids but still single at the age of 34. Who would've thought my life will start all over again after almost 15 years of my bitter sweet struggles? I've reduced my body with almost half of its size. But still my love and passion for life doubled just as quick as my weight went down. I cannot contain myself from loving and be loved in return. This makes my world go round. And this makes me complete all in all. I want to explore life and what i can do. And at the same time, I can say that you will continually see this face on every sites you'll ever visit. I will make myself visible for every one to see the REAL ME now...
Thursday, July 16, 2009
I've been into a relationship that lasted for more or less 15 years of my adult life. There's a lot to tell about all those years that I've experienced. But then, my writing this post is not about those years. You see I've never been into what they say "blessed partnership". I have never been into any civil or church wedding. But even if I'm not married, I still want to share my views and knowledge of what really goes on in that so called partnership between husbands and wives.
First, what do you think are the roles of husbands and wives? After getting vows of "Till death do us part", the man and woman start to live their lives together. And hopefully, starts having a child or two that they thought would make their marriage more binding. And so they thought so. Relationship of a husband and wife should not be focused on the children they want to raise. They should first start on making their relationship grow more as days, months, and years pass them by. When you try to ask other couples, they would simply answer that "Oh of course, we're ok and we have no problems at all". But when you know them personally, you can see right through their eyes that they are not okay at all. The problem lies to the fact that they are both telling themselves that they're okay. When in fact they are not at all okay. The husband usually tells his friend that there's something wrong with his wife. That she is not cleaning the house the way he wanted it to be cleaned, wife doesn't cook much these days because she's too busy working late in the office. And the worst thing he is complaining about is that his wife doesn't make love to him as often as he wants to. The husband would simply tell his friend that "She is not the woman I married years ago". Now, if the wife's neighbor or her office mate would ask her what's troubling her, she would tell him or her that her husband is never around anymore than when they were still starting to play the role of husband and wife. The wife complains of things like "he's always out with his friends!" Or "my husband doesn't talk to me anymore." Sounds familiar to almost all those couples I've met personally. And almost all of them found themselves out of their relationships.
Now, there are also those husbands and wives who choose to still live in one roof. And some of them just shrugged and let those problems wait to just fade away in time. Do you think trust between them still exist? I don't think that is possible at their stage now. And after everything that they've experienced, all their issues unsolved will surely start to lessen their chance of becoming a real and contented couple. Relationships between couples mainly start and end with love, respect, and trust. Without these essentials, they are bound to end eventually.