Wednesday, November 4, 2009

" My Life"

I can't believe it's been now a year since my unforgettable experience in my life. It was on the 5Th of November last year when I've almost lost everything,even my life. Last year I've decided to take my life by drinking a lot of sleeping pills. I can't imagine that I will not be here right now if i did end up being dead. Sometimes i feel that it was only yesterday when I was in my 15 years of my chosen life. But now I am where my faith and fate will lead me. I'm amazed at what prayers can do to make you turn your life 360 degrees.My mind was set then that I don't have the strength and the will to live. I've asked Mama Mary to take care of my 2 kids. I went out and bought myself about 20 sleeping pills and decided to wait till night to do it. So, I went to a chapel and prayed to Mama Mary to protect my kids, my mom, and my sister. After praying, I felt my legs started to walk leaving my mind behind. Took a jeep and found myself in front of the Baclaran church. It was my first time to go there. Then something magical happened. After I've cried so much and finally said to Mother of Perpetual Help "I am now surrendering everything to you." I felt something hot went inside me. Then slowly the pain and hurt was washed out from me. I can't forget the feeling of happiness slowly enveloping me. After that everything around me changed for the better. I've learned to love myself and accept all the things I cannot change anymore. I am now a woman who finally knows what I have and what I am worth. I am thankful to Mama Mary that she has given me the second chance to live and to love.

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