Sunday, April 29, 2012

Watching TV Is What Keeps Me Up

Watching TV is what keeps me up these days. People who have known the real me would not believe this at all. I don't even believe this myself. But here I am now, presently in front of the television while I write my thoughts. I know this is the right time to write while trying to understand my recent addiction.I have so many problems that I have to deal with since my mom passed away last year. I don't know where to start or how to move on. I feel so alone that watching TV is what keeps me up and makes me sane these days. I am so afraid of pouring my heart to anyone, afraid that they would either judge me or they would not listen at all. So when a Drama movie is on, I cry myself out just to relieve some pressure in my heart. I would also try to watch Comedy films and laugh till I cry. Sane or insane, it's what I do now. Hopefully, I can stop from this addiction and start learning to move on and start to be living my life again. For now, watching TV is what keeps me up till the time I realize what is fiction from reality.

1 comment:

  1. If you wanted to move on, try to let go if your past and think about you future.. It's never too late..
    I may not know you personally but I think you're a great person, don't be afraid because you never knew, you might felt good after telling somebody, it's just a matter of who. Why are you afraid to be judged when they have no right to judge you in the first place..
    try talking with someone close to you.. a family or a friend..
    Always remember that whatever it is that will come to your way, maybe a hindrance or problems, they will make you stronger, be strong enough so that the next time it happens.. you'll just smile and say that "Been there, done that, what's next?"
    Watching TV is really cool for now.. just don't overdo it you might get locked in fiction :)