Is There Someone Out There For Me?

Is there someone out there for me? This is my question for myself for a few months now. I have been trying to erase this question from my mind. But the more I try, the more it sinks in. So now I know I need to face this fact. I maybe simple to please, and easy to love, yet it doesn't change the fact that I am still alone and nothing, even me, can change that. And now, I am stopping from trying to change this fact. I don't want to exert effort again just trying to be loved. 
My heart will stop beating for now; my walls will guard me from this day on. My wishful thinking? That after me posting these thoughts of mine, someone out there will hear what my heart is telling him. And finally realize that I am just here all along for him. He will hear my question from the heart; the question: Is there someone out there for me?

Loving Someone So Much

I was crying when I've started this post. Hopefully, by the time I pour out whatever things going in and out of mind, I will feel a lot better and it my tears will just go away. Well, at least for a while just to be able to think clearly about what I really want to do with my life. This post is not intended to hurt or make other people feel guilty about anything. I just really need to do this for myself. If ever you want to react about this, kindly just keep it to yourself. Believe me; it will not help me in any way if you will react or not. This is purely for my peace of mind.
Shocked and heartbroken for more than a week now but still pain is stabbing right through my heart. I'm just wishing it will be over much sooner. My body ached for the love I thought would last me a life time. But I was just imagining all these from the start. It hurts more to realize that you were just the only one feeling that way. Letting go now is just impossible for me to do right now, not now. My only option for now is to face tomorrow and hoping I will have the courage to just let go of him. 
Loving someone so much doesn't assure you that he will love you the same level that you do. But what is really painful is he made me believe that there is forever for us. And that belief that I hold in my heart still hopes unconsciously. I know I am fooling myself when I see the truth he is revealing to me but still looking the other way around. I just hope that after all of these, I can still love the way I did and do now.

My Transitions

I'm into what they call transitions. Its different now since I know for a fact that I have to go through this if I want changes to take place. I am now aware that everything will have to change eventually. Some people are not aware of this until these changes will hit them straight on their faces. This is why most of us vulnerable to such phases in our lives. We don't understand why we can't just stay where we are all our lives.

I am one of those people, though aware, finds it hard not to be threatened to changes. I seemed to always find the need for someone to be with me if I go to such transition. It comforts me to know that whatever will come, I know there is that one person who will not leave and will always be there for me whatever may come. But now, I feel like nobody is really there all along. I need to get used to the idea of facing life on my own. It's sad though to realize that you know you have someone yet you are still alone.

It is time to learn that you don't need somebody to go on with life's struggles. You just need somebody who will care for you and love you all through the journey you will be taking. That whatever you will need to do, He will be just there beside you all the way. Transitions are inevitable in life. Don't ever be contented that someone will tell you they will love you forever. After all, words are just words. And eventually it will all fade in time. No words can be more powerful than being physically and emotionally present beside you as you go through these changes.