Showing posts with label happy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label happy. Show all posts

Friday, October 22, 2010

"Promises You Can't Keep"

Do promises you can't keep ring a bell? As a child, you've heard your parents or relatives say that they will promise you something if you will be good. One way or the other, they will give you what they have promised, good or not. But as you start to grow and have the chance to mingle with other people promises are sometimes the hard things to fulfill. Maybe we need to think beforehand what we know we can do and cannot do before opening our mouths. Am I right?
As I was sipping my wine and writing, I had the idea of enumerating some of the promises that I've heard but were never done. But after my last gulp of my wine, I've stopped. Why bother myself from thinking about these people who have the nerve to make such promises when they know they were the one who will break it first? I am happy to realize that I am not one of them. Even when my kids were just little, I have made sure that whenever the word promise goes out from my mouth; I always make it sure that I keep it. I wanted them to know the value of it. It was not really hard to do because I have learned from my past that words are such powerful tool that will help our children be guided until such time that they will start their own lives.
Your trust to a person will be very much affected if promises were made but they have decided to break it. I pity those people who do not deserve such trust. You may think you have the things you will ever want now. But always remember that love, trust, and promises you can't keep go hand in hand. Without these things, you will never be completely happy.
   

Sunday, June 13, 2010

My Choices

I've tried to rediscover myself for the last few months. I've been wanting to see what it's like for me now that I'm alone. ( Well, not really, in the eyes of those people around me.) It boils down to one question right now in my head... Am I happy this way??? I do hope I can find the answer while writing this down. Bear in mind though that I'm just writing these facts now just to clear my mind off some things that's been keeping me busy late at night.


The life that I was made to live in then was my own choice.And as seeing my kids grow, I can say that I'm happy that instead of having a career of my own just like the other mother's out there, I chose to stay.( He asked me to.But I didn't mind at all.) I wanted to work but I also wanted my kids to have a full time mother taking care of them not like what I've experienced during my childhood years.I was happy just to be there for them.I know that I've made the right choice. And if I'll be given the chance, I would still have that same choice. And never will I regret it.I could never exchange a successful career with the unexplained happiness of being a mother to my children.

I remember on one of our fights, he told me that it was wrong for me to do what he wanted me to do at that time. And that made me think. Maybe, he wanted me to be somebody else. After that, I've made another choice, my freedom.Loving a person is not really not easy after all. And getting to know each other will not just take you years. But rather, It will probably take you a lifetime.
I chose to be free and live my life all over again. I am proud to say that I have given all there was to give. As I'm starting all over again, I cannot argue with the fact that it's really hard to take a chance again without thinking that my past would still haunt me. I can say that for now, I am happy because I've chosen my freedom to live again. For because of this, I have found a love to keep me sane again. I am now more stronger and more eager to face my future with the person I love.